My Struggle With Technology
Submitted by an annonymous teacher of 18 years...
I would like to share my technology struggle with you.
I am a 5th grade teacher of 18 years. I often think back to when we had absolutely no computers or technology in our school.

How it was:
- We took attendance by hand and had a student bring it down to the office
- We hand wrote our report cards
- We kept our grades in a grade book that I could hold in my hands
- We got the weekly tip sheet in our mailboxes in the office and not by email
Here’s what happened first:
- Teachers take attendance on their laptops and submit electronically to the office
- I do my report cards on my computer over the internet
- My grades are kept on my laptop and uploaded to the school’s server
- I get emailed a tip sheet along with half a dozen district notifications daily
I remember when our building installed the computer lab. The first few years, it just sat there. A few brave teachers may have brought their classes in to attempt a “Computer Project.” Not me, I stayed away for many years. My students had always met their benchmarks and done very well on the whole. Why should I add a new aspect to the way I teach just because it is there?
This was fine until about seven years ago when our district began issuing laptops to teachers. I was told to check my email regularly as there would be no more paper tip sheets. Then came digital grade books and report cards.
I did my part and attended the half-baked district provided professional development on computer use and integration. I learned to use the computer, re-learned how to type and did everything I was supposed to do.
I would like to note that taking attendance and writing report cards on a computer in no way has any effect on curriculum or how the students learn. I believe that at first, technology integration in education was all administrative. I was ok with this, it’s more efficient , less paper, easier to communicate…etc. I get it.
Things went along like this for a while. I even started taking my class to the computer lab to use the computers for typing practice on a software program called Ultra Key, and for typing their final drafts. I was trying to integrate the best I could, without it affecting my curriculum timeline.
Lets fast forward to this past fall. I came in around mid August to prep my room for September. I opened the door and my whiteboard was gone. It had been replaced by a Smart Board.
I had seen smart boards at meetings. I did not ask for a smart board? What was I going to do without my whiteboard? How could they do this without asking or telling me? Wait…where was my overhead projector? It too had been taken and there was an Elmo Document camera on my desk. There were wires coming out of it going into the wall and there was also a projector coming out of my ceiling. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack! I had no idea how to use any of this equipment. I had no idea it was coming…and school was starting in less than a month.
I went to my principal’s office and asked, in the words of the late great Marvin Gaye, “What’s Goin’ On?” I was told that there were leftover funds from the previous school year and that pursuant with the district’s 21st century learning initiatives all of 4th and 5th grade has had smart boards installed in their rooms. Additionally, our building had acquired two mobile computer labs so our kids could use laptops in the classroom. What!?!?
Needless to day, this has been an interesting year.
How it is today:
- I spend as much time at almost worthless workshops that are over everybody’s head as I do grading and prepping my class.
- I have gotten to the point where I am able to use the smart board like an electric whiteboard, so I am where I was at without it.
- The Elmo is actually pretty nice, when I can get it to project through the projector, which is about 50% of the time.
- The laptop carts are nice when they work. When students have technical problems they can sometimes help each other, and sometimes they can’t. I cannot troubleshoot technical issues for two reasons:
1. I don’t know how.
2. Even if I did know how I wouldn’t have time to attend to the lesson at hand and help with computer usage.
I am a good teacher and I love what I do, but technology has made me question myself as a teacher. I thought technology was supposed to make everything easier and more efficient, like it did when we went to emails and digital report cards.
Does the fact that I am not a smart board technology wiz make me a bad teacher? If it does, it did not up until a year ago.
If we have the money to purchase smart boards, elmos, projectors, and laptop carts for teachers who don’t know how to use them, then why are we cutting the arts in our district?
To wrap this up, I would like to say that I am one of the teachers that has taken the time to keep up and learn these new technologies as they come through. Many of my colleagues have not. Alas, here I am writing an article on a website called “The 21st Century Teacher,” but I truly feel like technology has become a rain cloud over my classroom.
I am anxious to hear responses to this, along with any advice and/or similar experience out there.
Respectfully submitted,
Anonymous teacher of 18 years
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I don't have any specific advice, but I support the important step that you have taken in sharing your feelings and frustration!
Good Luck!
"...attended the half-baked district provided professional development on computer use and integration."
The IT departments at many districts roll out ambitious plans for classroom technology and the administration gets all hyped up about it during their high-powered conferences. But where does that leave the teachers? With "half-baked" PD that teaches everyone how to do effectively nothing with their new technology.
It's a sham(e) really, that there are not enough specialists out there who know how to put together real, engaging, hands-on professional development for the teachers who do and don't want to use it.
I'm a newer teacher, and have been mainstreaming technology into my math classes for years. But my colleagues don't because it's harder, it takes time, and it puts a little of the control out of your hands when you're not properly trained and practiced. As an education specialist, my mission is to develop and administer real PD sessions, where teachers can learn to play with the technology in real-life scenarios, as teams, before they are swept into a new world they aren't familiar with.
Because once we all feel more at home with the technology that are students are familiar with and use all the time, they learn. And when we can engage them with the multimedia and tools of the 21st century, they succeed.
I love this, and it is so true. Districts spending 100s of thousands of dollars on new equipment and not giving us the proper training to use it. It is so frustrating!
As I stated in the brief comment I made earlier, I'm so happy you've reached out via this blog. You are not alone in your frustration, as it seems handing out new tech tools with subpar training is all too often the norm for school districts. But, I won't dwell on that.. ;)
Instead, allow me to specifically address some of the points you've made and attempt to provide some helpful tips for each:
--If your prof devel is crummy, continue seeking the info you need online. YouTube (probably blocked at school, so try at home) has video tutorials for everything you can think of! Type in a topic such as "Saving notes from SMARTboard to PDF tutorial" and you'll get help. Also, get a techie friend in the building to help you. Let him/her mentor you. Eventually, ask your new techie mentor to show you how to use Twitter to build your own personal learning network (PLN). Twitter seems scary at first, but once you catch on, it is powerful stuff. I've yet to attend a prof devel session from which I've learned as much about technology integration than I have from the friends I've made on Twitter.
--During your planning period, go observe a teacher who effectively uses the SMARTBOARD in creative ways. (This may be your new, self-assigned techie mentor!) Jot down just one ore two cool ideas and schedule a time to meet w/ this teacher to discuss.
"The Elmo is actually pretty nice, when I can get it to project through the projector, which is about 50% of the time. . .The laptop carts are nice when they work. When students have technical problems they can sometimes help each other, and sometimes they can’t. I cannot troubleshoot technical issues. . .
--You're on the right track here. ALWAYS ask the students for help w/ tech troubleshooting . (They don't call 'em "digital natives" for nothin'!) When the troubleshooting fails, just go back to your own tried & true strategies. Also, consider asking students to suggest an alternative means of producing a similar outcome with different software, on paper, etc.
1. You don't have to do it all at once. Try implementing tech just once per day at first, maybe just for 10 minutes (think bellringer) at a time. As time goes by, integration will feel more natural and you'll start experimenting with more and more.
2. LET THE STUDENTS HELP YOU! Defer to them. It's ok! They will love and respect you for it, and you will be demonstrating the fact that learning is a lifelong endeavor. Teachers are students too!
Good luck! You can do it!
Installing it without telling you is bad management, full stop. Even if you share the whiteboard with others. Can't imagine anything more demotivating than showing willing, trying to keep up with the tech and then being told what tools you have to teach with.
As to easing the pain, I very much agree with Fawn's last comment. Getting the students to help works wonders. Also, and we tried this at my school with albeit limited success, you might want to set up an informal teachers and tech group where e.g. those who know how to us things show you how in return for coffee, biscuits and love.
Either way good luck!
Write a blog post somewhere that you sign. You will feel new power.
Find more teachers that you can come out to. We're out here. The work of Teaching is much too hard when done by yourself. We need to collaborate.
@jghfoundation0 8 or email me and I will be willing to help you. rgordon955@gmai l.com. Good Luck this year, and take some risks they won't hurt.
I feel for you! I'm concerned that you feel like a failing teacher, when this is the last thing that you should feel as someone with 18 years experience behind them.
However... (he says cautiously!)
Just because the way you've been teaching for the last 18 years has worked for all those years in preparing your kids for where they are today, doesn't mean that it is what is needed for the kids you are teaching today for tomorrow. We, more than ever, have a responsibility to teach our kids to be adaptable, fast learners who are respectful of others' ideas and cultures and the world around them. They need to be problem solvers, creative thinkers, imaginative and critical. I could go on - but my point is that the future world is not one that is based around knowing one thing and knowing it well. Technology is a critical element in helping kids/adults/people with all of these skills listed above. It has to be used - it has to be used well. We need to show kids how to use technology to help them to express, create, communicate.... adapt and learn.
I acknowledge that the PD you (and many others) have received is inadequate. The best PD, in my opinion, is ongoing support from colleagues and technology integration leaders. Someone who is a teacher and a ICT expert... AND yourself! Be a learner as we encourage and demand of our students. Take the time to play and explore technologies and be creative in how to use them. We can't be waiting until everyone is fully onboard before we take the next step, or else we would get nowhere. Think about your math classroom - how far would you get if you didn't move forward until your lowest achieving math student understood the concept?
You have taken a huge leap forward of many of your colleagues in sharing your thoughts and being open-minded enough to listen to the feedback. Well done! Keep exploring, keep trying, keep being open-minded.
Please don't take this personally. My view is that of a professional one inspired by your personal story.
All the best!
Ben
Thank You!
I am in the process of writing a research paper with my main question being "What fears/anxities do a K-8 school have on technology integration?" I presume you are with a public school - facing many of the fears that my teachers face. You are NEVER alone - this is an excellent website to find assistance!
Yes, I am a member - just wasn't logged in when I posted. I'm happy to share just send me your e-mail address. The paper is for my master's thesis.
From what I'm reading, you're not really at fault, poor management is.
Technology really can help you teach better (and give better preparedness to students), if your district had also invested in instructional technologists and designers... and the right technology.
Smart boards are expensive and useless, and the cam-projector, well, probably more useful than overheads (read: not much).
However, I echo Ben Grundy 100%.
Professionalism today necessarily means keeping up.
It's great you have a Smart Board - be happy as you now have a great new (easy to use) piece of equipment with which you can start embedding ICT in your subjects for your students.
They need you to love ICT. You need to learn to love it - if you want your students to become active engaged future citizens.
I hope you stick with it and can find some networks and support online.
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